We started dating last year, everything was perfect. We know each other from Twitter. He requested to follow me on my Twitter and I accepted his request. I never knew he would be someone special and someone that is very important to me.
During semester break, I think it was on February 2013.. A week before new semester begins..
I made cookies and I had uploaded the picture of my cookies on my Twitter. He saw my post and he started to comment about my cookies. He asked me whether my cookies were delicious or not. I said, of course my cookies were delicious and it was proven when my nephews and my nieces ate all of my cookies and told me that my cookies were so yummy! Then he asked me to make cookies for him and bring it back when I'm going back to Jengka. I didn't fulfill his wishes because at that time I didn't feel anything else but regard him as a friend on my Twitter. From that time, he always reply my tweet and every single day, he waited for me to respond his comments.
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A weeks later, I'm going back to Jengka as my semester will begins. At that time, we still contact on Twitter and finally, he asked my phone number. I gave him then we started contact through phone. Day by day, we became closer. We share everything, even our small problems.
Before he started his final exam, I got problem to post my industrial training application. I asked him for help and he willing to help me. For the first time, I met him when he gave me the courier's form. I still remembered, he wore yellow shirt and he waited in front of Blok J. Luckily, I recognize him.. I was too shy that time. I just took that courier's form and two words came from my mouth "Thank You". Smile and went back to my classroom. Few days later, again... I asked him for help, post my application letter. We met at Fastrack cafe before I am going to afternoon class.
On 6th April 2013.. He proposed me then we officially in a relationship. He was my everything and he made me the happiest girl in the world. I was so proud to call him mine and everything was amazing. We never fought, we made each other laugh all the time and there was never a dry moment. We got along so well and every day I loved him more and more. We saw each other everyday. I truly believed he was the love of my life and that we were meant to be and he thought the same. We swore our love forever and we really believed the distance wouldn't hurt our strong relationship.
After a few months, I went to Kuching to undergo my Industrial Training. During my Industrial Training, I met someone named Charles. At that time, my relationship between Abie was on crisis. It was clear we were becoming kind of distant but we still can overcome our problems.
When he finished his diploma, he started work as an instructor. He was very busy and he didn't have time for me. Day by day, our relationship became worst. I was so sad because I put him over almost everything and I tried to talk to him and tell him I was thinking about him all the time but I felt like I never received anything in return. I felt unappreciated and kind of worthless to him.
Now, we had clash perhaps broke up. He didn't even seem sad to say bye to me. He blame me. He said because of me, our relationship getting worst and because of me that we broke up. He said, I was breaking his heart. I thought, maybe it's my fault. It seemed like he had completely moved on with his life and forgotten about me. Honestly, I made a mistake and I'm sorry. Last week, I text him first and we continued to talk but he rarely did anything to make me smile or make me happy. I felt like I wasn't talking to the guy I loved but still texting him and act like things were okay.
Before a year after we felt for each other, he made a decision to break up with me and I was like someone stab my heart. It was so hurt and I can't accept his decision because I really love him. I do really love him. As I said, he was everything. Day by day, my love towards him became stronger.I never regret choosing him to be mine. I opened my heart to learn everything for him and for myself but now he left me. So easy for him to let me go.
It was so difficult for me. I cried every night. I still think about him every single day but I knew he didn't love me anymore and in time he'll find someone better than me. I read his tweet " How do I live with the one I love". What's the meaning of that baby? You replaced me and have new girlfriend? Owh God.. It's hurt me a lot. You have meet someone that makes you feel happy, beautiful and stands by you? Please don't baby. I'm still loving you. I miss the old you, the one that cared about me. I never thought that you would end up meaning this much to me. My worst fear is losing you, Abie.
Abie, how I wish you give us one more chance for our relationship. I wish I could turn back time? I know it is impossible because you didn't love me.. Before, your id for twitter was _m*****H but now you have changed it to am_*****. I'm so sad.. Jelas, awak buang saya dari hidup awak. Thanx for everything Abie..
Abie, how I wish you give us one more chance for our relationship. I wish I could turn back time? I know it is impossible because you didn't love me.. Before, your id for twitter was _m*****H but now you have changed it to am_*****. I'm so sad.. Jelas, awak buang saya dari hidup awak. Thanx for everything Abie..
*Life Is Only Traveled Once. Today's moment Becomes Tomorrow Memory. So Enjoy Every Moment Good Or Bad Because The Gift Life Is Life Itself...*
